Sunday, March 24, 2013

What Doesn't Kill You Makes You Stronger


Weight, well this has been an issue for me since I was in elementary school. It may not seem like that is possible but trust me, it is. I have never intended to be big I just get comfort from food whenever I consume it. When I was younger my life was changed upside down and it always seemed as if nothing was ever constant in my life except for food it never mattered what kind as long as it was edible. Well that caught up to me very fast and instead of going to play at recess I would go and eat a snack.

One thing that I have never been able to get use to is how cruel people can be. At the age of 13 I was bullied for as long as I can remember because I was always the biggest of the class. I was always the outcast and the one to get chosen last just because I was a little bigger.

What people don’t realize is that I am uncomfortable with my body, I wake up every morning hoping and praying that I will look down and all of the fat will just melt off and that I wouldn’t have to deal with the humiliation anymore. No one knows that I am afraid of going to school every day because I have no clue if I am going to fit into a desk because I may be too big or if I eat lunch will people look at me and think I am just a cow. People that have made fun of me have scared me for life and they have made me the person I am today.

I have recently started dieting and exercising it is the hardest thing I have ever done. But I have lost a total of 11 pounds, it may not seem like much but it’s enough to keep me motivated and happy. I am turning my life around and this time I am doing it for my sake and no one else can tell me I can’t succeed because it is my life and I can do what I want with it.
 

6 comments:

  1. you seriously rock. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise! The courage you have when you write your blogs really inspires me. I could never write what you do. I love how personal you get and I think when you write about these personal experiences it is your best writing. You are doing a great job of writing with a purpose and I wish you luck with your weight loss journey! I know you can do it:) GOOD JOB!

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  2. Brandee, The one thing you consistently do in your writing is be honest. Thanks for sharing such a personal side of you. Your risks in your writing make it powerful to read. As I look at the comments your peers are making, you are doing exactly what the quote you attached to this piece of writing speaks of. And I know you touch so many more lives!

    Okay, now I have to offer some constructive criticism. One of the things that takes away from the power of your writing is lack of proper use of conventions. Be sure to avoid run-ons and put punctuation in the correct spot. That will help your message come across more clearly. Keep writing!

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  3. I wish I could be as honest as you are every week in your blogs. The risks you take by being so personal really show! I hope you can gain the confidence to be happy in your body, because it is yours and no one else's. Own it. (: You are so motivated and I believe you posses the power to do anything you set your mind to! Very nice work! Good luck with this challenge!

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  4. I really enjoy how honest you can be. I really look up to you, because I could never come out and say things like you do. When I was reading this I felt that I was just talking to you as a friend. I can sense all of your emotion. I can tell you are motivated! I am so happy for you! It's so great that you are making a change in your life. I will always be here to support you! Keep up the good work and fantastic job! :)

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  5. This was wonderfully inspirational. It is great how the weight has motivated you to change. The strength you have is unimagible to me. I have tried numerous times to loose a few pounds with no sucess. I can barely loose half a pound when I try. Props to you for your devotion and results. You are incredible!

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  6. "When I was younger my life was changed upside down and it always seemed as if nothing was ever constant in my life except for food it never mattered what kind as long as it was edible." That was a really long sentence. Other than that, it was really good!I know how you feel with the being bullied because you're bigger than other people. It's been like that with me for quite some time. I also have decided to go on a diet. So, I feel your pain, but I also feel that want of a smaller body. So, never give up! I've lost 24 pounds, and it's a wonderful feeling to lose weight! Keep it up~

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