What Doesn't Kill You Makes You Stronger

Weight, well this has been an issue for me since I was in elementary school. It may not seem like that is possible but trust me, it is. I have never intended to be big I just get comfort from food whenever I consume it. When I was younger my life was changed upside down and it always seemed as if nothing was ever constant in my life except for food it never mattered what kind as long as it was edible. Well that caught up to me very fast and instead of going to play at recess I would go and eat a snack.

One thing that I have never been able to get use to is how cruel people can be. At the age of 13 I was bullied for as long as I can remember because I was always the biggest of the class. I was always the outcast and the one to get chosen last just because I was a little bigger.

What people don’t realize is that I am uncomfortable with my body, I wake up every morning hoping and praying that I will look down and all of the fat will just melt off and that I wouldn’t have to deal with the humiliation anymore. No one knows that I am afraid of going to school every day because I have no clue if I am going to fit into a desk because I may be too big or if I eat lunch will people look at me and think I am just a cow. People that have made fun of me have scared me for life and they have made me the person I am today.

I have recently started dieting and exercising it is the hardest thing I have ever done. But I have lost a total of 11 pounds, it may not seem like much but it’s enough to keep me motivated and happy. I am turning my life around and this time I am doing it for my sake and no one else can tell me I can’t succeed because it is my life and I can do what I want with it.

 

Love or Infatuation

 

Love, what is it? Is it telling the person they love them or showing them through your actions? What a lot of people don’t know is that true love is showing your significant other that they love them without saying they do.

In this age of people you see them throwing out they love eachother because they once shared a cookie with them or that they just had a spark. Love is something delicate and it takes time to actually know for sure that the feeling they have is real. But how do you know for sure? Well it's simple you’re not going to want anyone else and you would do anything for the one you love and would sacrifice your happiness for theirs. You will do anything and everything for them.

It’s not just in relationships that you see this word being thrown around; even in family members you see this happening. Such as you have a mother or father that left when you were young and they never managed to get to see you every other weekend or that they didn’t ever have the decency to call you on the phone and say happy birthday. They then call you after a certain period of time and at the end of every two minute call they would say ‘I love you’ and of course you will say it back. This can take you by surprise but that love is something you really bad want to be there so you push so hard to get it. But, at the end of the day you will realize that you don’t truly love then you just love the person they were for those two minutes every week.

Taking time to find out if your love is real will save you many days of a broken heart.

Think Before You Make a Decision

            “Hey we should drink tonight.”

Those five words are the things that I wish I could take back every day. This event happened three months ago. I was very big headed and thought that nothing could come of this irresponsible event that I was going to do. I got into that car and even though I wasn’t the one that was driving I should have stopped it because the driver was more intoxicated then me. Twenty minutes after beginning to drink and having a good time while driving around we saw red, white, and blue behind us. At that moment my heart sunk and I knew that I was going to get busted. Sure enough I was caught with .44 alcohol level in my system. I was referred to the juvenile court and was given three months of unsupervised probation, a $50 class, and license restrictions for a month.

I am not telling you this story to get any bad reactions but I want to spread the word on how lucky I am. As I see the situation it could have been much worse, for example I could have killed an innocent life for some stupid decision that I could have avoided.

 Everyone has reasons for everything they do, but there is no reason for getting into a vehicle while drinking. So, get a designated driver and wait until you are of legal age. Don’t think your untouchable and be careful because you could be the next one in my position or even worse, people could be standing around a casket grieving of your death or even the other drivers. Think before you make a decision.  

 

 

Death of an Innocent

I went to a party, Mom,
I remembered what you said.
You told me not to drink, Mom,
So I drank soda instead.

I really felt proud inside, Mom,
The way you said I would.
I didn't drink and drive, Mom,
Even though the others said I should.

I know I did the right thing, Mom,
I know you are always right.
Now the party is finally ending, Mom,
As everyone is driving out of sight.

As I got into my car, Mom,
I knew I'd get home in one piece.
Because of the way you raised me,
So responsible and sweet.

I started to drive away, Mom,
But as I pulled out into the road,
The other car didn't see me, Mom,
And hit me like a load.

As I lay there on the pavement, Mom,
I hear the policeman say,
"The other guy is drunk," Mom,
And now I'm the one who will pay.

I'm lying here dying, Mom...
I wish you'd get here soon.
How could this happen to me, Mom?
My life just burst like a balloon.

There is blood all around me, Mom,
And most of it is mine.
I hear the medic say, Mom,
I'll die in a short time.

I just wanted to tell you, Mom,
I swear I didn't drink.
It was the others, Mom.
The others didn't think.

He was probably at the same party as I.
The only difference is, he drank
And I will die.

Why do people drink, Mom?
It can ruin your whole life.
I'm feeling sharp pains now.
Pains just like a knife.

The guy who hit me is walking, Mom,
And I don't think it's fair.
I'm lying here dying
And all he can do is stare.

Tell my brother not to cry, Mom.
Tell Daddy to be brave.
And when I go to heaven, Mom,
Put "Daddy's Girl" on my grave.

Someone should have told him, Mom,
Not to drink and drive.
If only they had told him, Mom,
I would still be alive.

My breath is getting shorter, Mom.
I'm becoming very scared.
Please don't cry for me, Mom.
When I needed you,
you were always there.

I have one last question, Mom.
Before I say good bye.
I didn't drink and drive,
So why am I the one to die?

-Unkown-